Saturday, March 29, 2008
my dreams in your absence

when the distance takes its toll.

i find myself reliving the memories we created
just to keep myself a little more sane...

the virtual flowers i find in chat histories
leaves me smiling silly at my laptop screen.
[sometimes i forget how sweet you can be]

remember that day at IKEA when you make the hand-puppet sheep nag like you do?
and you told me that i could do that whenever you nag at me on the other end of the line.
[i love it when you do silly things to make me laugh.]

making me feel safe are those times when i attempt to walk away from you
only to have you tug at my jeans reeling me right back into your arms
followed by you saying "i don't want to let you go."
[and i never want to go]

a sense of reassurance i feel as you tighten your grip on my hand when i try and pull away in the midst of a disagreement.
[when the unspoken words make a whole lot of difference]

when i can feel every distinct beat of my heart and i struggle with each breath,
i know i've lost myself in the intense yet gentleness of your eyes.
[i'll gladly lose myself with you]

those eyes that become 'cheena'-sharp at the end when you look up at me.
those well-defined beauties.
[and i just smile]

i love your ticklish laughter when it ain't suppose to be ticklish at all.
[i roll my eyes and then i laugh along]

every dessert i have now reminds me of the brownies you seduced me with.
[made me feel special]

you touched me true that night when you looked up above
and said your thank you prayer for having me in your life.
[and i feel lucky too for having you in mine]

when you bring out the craziness in me with just words,
all i want to do is climb back up your ladder.
[enough said.]

and how can i ever forget that day before i left...
you were simply amazing.

now that i am deprived of those loving touch
the assurance i get from the unspoken words
the playful kisses and tickles...

all i'm looking forward to is
a phone call
a sms
or even a virtual form of communication
and of course the next time i get to hold you in my arms again

to remind me that i'm a part of your life
that i'm being thought of
to make me feel loved
and in love.

that's all i ask for.