Sunday, March 8, 2009
toil and trouble

i need to let you know...
3rd year uni is a KILLER!

all my DEADlines are lined up snugly one after the other. my week-long easter(mid-sem) break has shrunk to ONE day and that one day is meant for recuperation from my SIX-day fieldwork camp. now i know why i've been getting "wow.. you're gonna be doing THREE 3rd year zoo units in one semester?!"
THREE 3rd year Zoology units is NO joke!!!
seriously NOT funny!

i've never been so stress 2 weeks into school. in fact, i was already stressed out in the FIRST week. went to the supermarket the other day to stock up on my ammunition of ICE-CREAM and CHOCOLATES for when the war fully begin. i'm in desperate need of ANY little tiny thing that'll make me happy... ANYTHING at all.

it's times like this when i want to crawl away and bury myself deep in his arms. even a FUN-LOVING SQUABBLE would do me some good but the intermittence of the phone connection makes it difficult. fire a shot and bear half a minute of silence before a return attack kinda takes away the momentum. the SILENCE in between makes it seem like real squabbling rather than a fun-loving spontaneous one.

having someone be INTERESTED in my babbling makes me happy too. and by "interested", i mean ALL attention on my babbling just for that while. the slightest hint that i've lost the attention will dampen my mood and my babbling will come to a halt... even if it's a slight delay in a reply.

i also hate being cut off in the middle of a conversation especially when i have something i'm EXCITED to say. it's hard to get me to talk so when i start babbling, DON'T stop me because it's not going to be easy to get me started again. i'll either forget what i wanna say or i just don't feel like telling you about it anymore. unfortunately, the neccessities of life have DEPRIVED me of my babbling. things like work, taking a meal or a shower, sleep but most of all, the TIME difference.

*****
when i begin to DRIFT away on a fast flowing river (of work), i'll CLING on to something and HOLD on with all my might but should you not CATCH me in time, or should i find myself with a REASON to let go, i will drift with the flow, exclude ALL else and drown myself (with work).