Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Sem 6: Week 4

not sure if it's the lack of sleep, stress of work piling, lost of my dear laptop or a combination of all that... but i'm feeling really odd, uneasy and insecure. as it is i already have a lot of stuff boggled up in my mind but now i've got extra unneccessary things (like deciding whether or not to get a new laptop.. the funds associated with it.. and the guilt) thrown into the whole jumble. not fun and i don't like it at all.

life's full of hard decisions. even the littlest of things require a lot of thought and considerations. maybe i'm making a bigger deal of it than it actually it is. i don't think so though. i really don't want to spend anymore of my parents' money than i already have with my very costly education. it's been a couple of days but i still have not gotten fully comfortable with joycie's laptop. it's not the laptop though... it's performing well and letting me have all the things i need to do all i need to do. and i am very grateful for having it in a time like this. but... still... it's not mine. i can't do whatever i want with it and there's just no bond. a personal computer is meant to be personal. i'm not sure this feeling makes any sense to any of you reading this but i do feel sad about this lack of a bond. now i feel like i'm caught in between and making a decision about whether or not to get a new laptop is harder than i would ever imagine.

it is also a fair bit into the semester. week 4 now. not sure i'll be able to get used to a new laptop (esp. a mac) in time for the peak assignments-due period. well, anyway, this week is going to be a really hectic week. from this week on, we'll be taking over the responsibility of caring for the lizards we're using for our behavioural experiment and also carrying out our experiment which requires a bit of handling time. so this week on, Joyce, Tamari and i will be heading into school everyday over the weekends to make sure they've still got food and to spend some time playing with them. i think it's gonna be fun! hopefully, our new pets will be able to take my mind off all the crappy stuffs and bring new joy. =)

this week i'd also have to be involved in the rehearsals for Multicultural Night and will be going for Ben n Eileen's graduation party this weekend. oh and also go collect balloons and flowers on friday for my friends' graduation on saturday. busy busy...

now.. i need to go get some behavioural stuff done and prepare for the presentation tmr...